Settling In

Settling in is a nice feeling to experience. I would assume this is the case when you settle in with a significant other and decide to have a family and all that good stuff. We're not talking about that here. We're talking about simply finding yourself at home...and perfect segue into the start of this post...

For a while, I've been looking into getting my own place. SRS business. I think I'm getting close but not ready to reveal details on the matter until things are finalized. I'm kinda drifting away in both the sense that I will be further away from some I'm not far away from and my decisions on how I will be doing this may turn off lots of people but progress is progress and you don't learn anything unless you try. No danger? No regrets. I'll be pushing forward with this with the way I see both most effective and cost-friendly. Holding back to ponder what others think will just hold me back. It's time to pull the trigger. More for sure when things are more set in stone.

In looking for a place, I find myself wanting to find a comfortable spot with as many things as possible. The easiest one to explain would be with gaming. In doing content for games, I still play what I want, when I want. The thing with that however is sometimes after it all, I don't want to play a game on my own for the sake of playing a game. So, I feel like I should be settling in with a select few games when I am not doing content. I made a post along these lines back in December of 2012 called "Deciding on "Go-To" Games for each Gaming Platform". How very wrong it was. I don't really play any of those anymore...although I seek to change that. One of the games this list I plan to settle with. Right now, I have two in mind.

The thing with Titanfall is that it seems like the only way I can get back into a shooter game. Arena shooters are a thing of the past and the modern Call of Duty nonsense got old quickly. I got into Halo 4 for a while but it wasn't long before people stopped playing that too out of the people I play with. Anyone that knows the roots of Video Gaming Hard Corps knows that the big "community game" or sorts was Gears of War 2. Gears was always a topic. Updates and scheduling to play games was a good portion of the group topics and was very well accepted given that it was basically our entire group at the time. Now, VGHC has grown, but with the way things look, Titanfall COULD be the next big game that several of us play and happen to enjoy. Not only that but others who I have not played with before in the community may also want to play. I miss the "Gears of War 2" days and it will be nice to go back to something like that. Community gaming with something I've been hoping comes back with some game out there. One in which close friends as well as people in VGHC can enjoy. Here comes the segue into game number two...

A game that will challenge my gaming habits of "rushing people in the face and seeing what happens" for sure, League of Legends is something I just NEED to learn how to play. At the very least, I want to establish a understanding for the game. It seems a certain "Guy without a Facebook" and a "Frost Queen" would love to teach me, if willing to learn. I've actually gotten this offer from several. Makes me think well of the community. Everyone who is into this game is REALLY into it. There seems to be no middle ground. The thing with this game is I have to dedicate the time. I can't pick this up casually from time to time and expect to be good, or at least not until I understand much more than what I do. When I get settled in with a place in my personal life, I hope to make more time for this as it could be really fun if I do eventually catch onto how the game works. That...and if this happens, I'll likely never be left alone. Someone I know will always want to play. LoL fans are so passionate about the game so I want to understand more about this game that got stupid popular in a short amount of time and is actually considered to be a legit sport now. There are themed pre-paid American Express cards for the damn game based on champions from it. That is insane.

Seems I ran out of steam here. My passion for most outside of routine things I do has been rather...not there...again. Too many things I try to tackle at once. I feel a period of relaxation is in my near future though and then everything will make sense. Or maybe it won't. I'm thinking that will be the case if I decide to pull the trigger on yet something else I have in mind. Too many thoughts. Can't put them all in one place. Well, I can but some other time. It will make for more posts and when I have to words to describe thoughts in my head, they usually end up here. Until next time.

Ain't No Rest for the Wicked

...Money don't grow on trees. I've got bills to pay, I've got mouths to feed...alright maybe not any but my own, but you get the idea. It's that future thinking though that can sometimes get me into trouble. Every time I want to hit the off switch, certain thoughts just come on through and take over. Like some kind of instinct or something. I guess it's hard to break a routine once you're used to it. There's never really a right time to "go dark" for me given how many things I try and do. The only place I really "go dark" constantly is in real life but that's a whole other story. Onto the point!

So I've juggled around a few new things. I recently started a new "Twitch to Tube" series known as "NESPwned". It's EXACTLY what it sounds like. I had a whole week straight of killing it in sales at work and putting out content like it was nothing via VGHC. I did miss one of the five days but I simply forgot. It seems every time I think I have writers block I suddenly come out with more ideas. Long or short. Written or video. I also have something in the works known as "Project Hayabusa". That is also pretty much what it sounds like for anyone who knows that name. Some closer to me or that pay attention may know a bit more but this is more a idea than anything else. I did finally start it though, much like several games and books I have. So many things started but so few finished. When I do finish something, I make sure it's to my liking and then some. I try to apply this the most in my personal life, which I've been doing a stellar job of at both my workplace and personal growth as well as a person.

My latest job got me out of my comfort zone to a level where I've surprised people I know. I was way too shy. To an extent, I still am. I'm introverted after all. At work though, you wouldn't think I was introverted at all. I'm a social butterfly at work. Similar to how I am online. That's kinda scary actually, thinking about it as I write this. On the flip side, when you talk to people on the phone all day, you run into some genuine assholes. After multiple 40-50 hour work weeks of dealing with some of these people, which makes it WAAAAY too easy to then brush people off that act like this in real life. I used to go back and forth a lot with individuals in the hopes of some kind of resolution but why waste your time if they think they know everything, or simply poke at you to be an ass. No real point.

No one is perfect though. Anyone who thinks they are is full of themselves. There are things I still lack confidence in or dare to tackle. Just like playing any game, you don't start off good. You get good with practice. It's that way with most things unless you have some unnatural talent for something. This won't happen for everything you do though. Everyone has strengths and weaknesses. You're not gonna catch a Sorceress doing melee attacks...unless you're just starting in the early levels of Diablo II, and want to smack around a few Quill Rats with your staff because your mana regen sucks early on. You also don't run into a group of "Champions" when you know you don't have a fighting chance...unless you're an idiot like me. LoL.

There almost always either a hidden message or something that relates to my personal life in lots of posts I make. When I announce something, I like to be pretty certain of it. It's why sometimes I will stay shut about things until the time is right. My future plans involve getting out of my current place of residence after successfully visiting Maryland for some MAGFest action. Maybe sometime after accomplishing these things, I can get to a long overdue podcast that I will be hosting (Machinae Supremacy related but had to be pushed back), better streams, and a bunch of other stuff that rolls through my head. I swear I have a social life...but only so many know this. To those I've seen as of recently, thank you. You've all helped more than you know in one way or another.

Oh and also...Kirby is still sleeping. Just a little while longer and then we shall come back full force, won't we Kirby?