3rr0r$ and W@rn1ng$

WTF were they thinking with this?!?

Everyone likes to win, right? Winning is a funny thing, actually, as success can make or break you. What one does with this when achieved is a funny thing because you never know what is going to happen. If you don't succeed, you fail, and no one wants that; it changes things though. Your outlook on life, the way you act towards others, ect. A lot of recent posts have been a success story or sorts but I can assure you, this is the complete opposite. Whoever you are, you're gonna fail, and in some cases, you will plummet to the ground...hard.

I enjoy results. This has never changed. It doesn't matter if I play a game, sell someone at my job, or have a good time with a group of friends. Maybe I enjoy it a bit too much though. The very source of lots of my old fashioned ways come from home. As I continue to rise and I don't see the same coming from the source, it has become more and more depressing to come home. It's not like terrible to the point where anyone should be legitimately worried, but it's a lingering problem I no longer want a part of. That and it's time to truly start the independent chapter of my life. Do or do not is something I take to the extreme. I've never enjoyed excuses and I feel like the more I hear, the worse I become. Patience fades. The root of all evil becomes apparent and all hell breaks loose.

My works stresses that customers need to attack "the root of the problem". I know what the root of the problem is for me, I just haven't handled it right. Not yet. I'm still stuck in certain way and trying to figure out as much of the journey as possible before pulling the trigger on that next chapter for me personally. I seek answers more than ever, but I shouldn't know all the answers. No one does. I've gotten myself into some bad scenarios financially the last two months. Nothing that really is making enough of a difference to be in debt but any expense not planned, that could have been avoided somehow, is something I continue to give myself crap for.

The thing is this though...I have patience. It does exists. When I seek to help others at work, I have all the patience in the world when it comes to helping. I feel accomplished. Maybe I just figured out my own problem.

A Bob-Omb is a perfect symbol of the lack of patience I sometimes have. They only walk forward so far before blowing up. Not much time given at all. No matter how much I do, something is always missing, and it isn't what I thought it was sometime back. It's not the lack of a princess to call my own. It's not a lack of accomplishment. It's a inability to forgive both myself for silly mistakes I make at times and perhaps others as well. Forgive but don't forget. Sure thing, but have I really mastered the forgive part? Perhaps not. Can you really forgive something like Duke Nukem Forever? Can you really just simply get over the fact that Metroid: Other M completely trashes Samus' character? Can you ever stop reflecting on the fact that your time on Super Mario Bros. 2 was wasted, because it technically all never happened? Will I ever forgive Capcom for not giving Mega Man a proper 25th anniversary?

A short fuse and shutting out the world. He's mad bro...

In real life, I don't really have a consistent group of friends. Not many do. Don't get me wrong, I do have friends. I'd even go as far as to say I'm lucky to have as many as I do that I still talk to from high school. From time to time, they even surprise me with a visit, or message, or something. Party members will change constantly and there is no real way to predict who will stick around. One can hope for a Phantasy Star 4 scenario. Four friends consistent, one there from time to time, with others around as well for when that fifth isn't around. Instead, sometimes you're handed the Final Fantasy XIII scenario, where you are constantly tossed into a party with random people. In reality, you only take so many into the future. There is no real way to figure that out in advance. You can try and perhaps be right about some but also dead wrong about others.

This recklessness of sorts actually helps but can sometimes hurt as well. When it does, it hurts badly, although most of those scenarios are things that involve just me...which I never stop giving myself crap for. This is something that needs work and not just a one time fix either. I need lifetime support. Perhaps this can come from a person or hobby but no. It has to be something I can learn to do. I didn't know how to play Halo before I did. Hell, I was laughed at on stream when I went to play it on Legendary on my first time playing the game. Then look what happened...I succeeded. Funny thing about that, my first MaxAttack video was on Halo 4. What's the theme of MaxAttack? Rushing people in the face and seeing what happens; recklessness. Maybe there's a pattern here. Maybe it can't be fixed, so why not just give up? Maybe that isn't the best idea.

The question remains if there is any turning back. Join up with random parties from time to time to feel relevant and perhaps help said party with something they need. Is it really the same as just simply having a good time? What's more fun, a forced game of Smash Brothers or a game of Mario Party where no one cares what happens?

Is this a post with gaming references thrown in as usual or a accurate psychoanalysis of myself? You decide. Either way, it all sounded good in my head for a post. It's not all fun and games out there. It's not all about winning either. It's also about learning to accept failure. Failure which in turn makes you more knowledgeable to face the next quest. Just don't let it be Fester's Quest because then you are bound to miss any target you shoot for... 

If you've played before, you know this black ball is NOT likely to kill that frog and instead circle completely around him.