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| I still can't believe this will be happening... |
"I have things I need to do on my own as well. For the first time in my life, I'm not only setting personal goals, but they are being made visible so I can see them each day. I'm reading material now in regards to both my work and self-improvement of sorts. It's time to step things up. Again. I'm one of those guys who's always looking for the next best thing and I think this is the best way to go about it all. At the same time, I'm not willing to throw in the towel on VGHC that I've built from the ground up nor the MachinaeTribe that I've made quite the impact in since joining, starting MachinaeMondays and my promotion to admin before I even started the idea and just simply brought it up. To all those who continue to support me in anything I do, thank you. It means the world to me."The support is much appreciated as always. I actually recently put out video #300 for the Video Gaming Hard Corps channel. I still can't believe I've managed to put out three hundred videos, even if only a select few (with the exceptions of some videos) have really seen them at all. It was a look back, much like the first
"To The Future" post was and much like this one will be.
Today, I stayed home from work due to lack of having a voice. This of course gives me more time to do something I do more than actually game anymore. Think. It's like I fall into limbo and when I come back to my senses, it's time to start the next day. While this likely won't change even after moving (still a most definite plan) I will have achieved more at that point. You are your own worst critic and for all that I have done and accomplished this year, 2014 needs to be even better. I'm proud of lots I've done this year but much of it is overdue progression now finally put into place.
Next year needs to be me even more comfortable in my own shoes which needs to show in any VGHC content as well as on the outside world and at work. I haven't been able to bring that same level of energy and confidence to the YouTube videos which is why I want to try and slow those down and only put out what I feel is well...worth putting up. This doesn't include content that makes itself though, like Twitch to Tube videos, InRetroSpection, and so forth.
A rough idea of what will be going down, I posted on a Facebook status. Some of my thoughts need to go somewhere, right?
"Early goal setting for 2K14:
Q1:
- Make a difference via the Machinae MAGFest meet up.
- Finish #ProjectHayabusa
- Machinae Podcast launch?
- GTFO of Coral Springs
- Get myself back in gear for VGHC and make more use of a scary vocal range I know I have for future videos. If I'm brave enough.
- Get a select few with ability to stream on some VGHC streams/YT vids."
Of these things, MAGFest approaches slowly but surely. I rarely go to shows anymore and I'm going to a crazy gaming events of sorts that I am likely to have a stupid amount of fun at. Anxiety however is at a all time high. I've only traveled outside of the state I live in at the time once. I don't count the time where I had to move to Florida. I've never done it alone. Given my nature, the thought of it bothers me none. It's just that I'm actually doing it and for about a weeks time. I had hoped to have at least one other to enjoy this with me but it seems "the final hoorah" will be spent alone. Maybe I'll hit it off well with the Tribe members for the planned meetup. Yeah, I'm kinda planning a event to meet some of these people. Maybe even the band. I may actually meet Machinae Supremacy. I dunno what I'm gonna do with myself...
Fangirling aside, I will have to make preparations for the trip and genuinely walk into this alone. Much planning will be involved outside of just having fun. Moving out is gonna be a big step, sure. I am however willing to push that back, if need be. MAGFest isn't gonna wait. It's coming. I want this to be as close to perfect as possible because I've been mentally burnt out the past two months. It's show through VGHC and even at work. Can't have this at work, I make less money that way. When I come back from MAGFest, I have nothing else to shoot for outside of future progression. Getting out of Coral Springs. I have other goals, yes, as stated above, but top priority is leaving my current place of residence.
It's easy to talk about things like this like it is some kind of journey. Such is life anyway. I don't really have anyone to share it with, so thoughts end up in a post like this every month or so. Gives me a chance to sort things out and put out content. Putting out content...something else that needs to happen. Time to suit up and prepare for greatness. Much like the PS4 is still doing about a month after being released. Yeah, I went there. Lots of things do...to the next step. #ToTheFuture
P.S. I've made a decision. I'm going to MAGProm on principle alone. I never attended my high school prom. Do I regret it? No, my reason for not going was justified. The fact stands though that I didn't attend. I'm already gonna be there. What's staying up another hour or two?
Next year needs to be me even more comfortable in my own shoes which needs to show in any VGHC content as well as on the outside world and at work. I haven't been able to bring that same level of energy and confidence to the YouTube videos which is why I want to try and slow those down and only put out what I feel is well...worth putting up. This doesn't include content that makes itself though, like Twitch to Tube videos, InRetroSpection, and so forth.
A rough idea of what will be going down, I posted on a Facebook status. Some of my thoughts need to go somewhere, right?
"Early goal setting for 2K14:
Q1:
- Make a difference via the Machinae MAGFest meet up.
- Finish #ProjectHayabusa
- Machinae Podcast launch?
- GTFO of Coral Springs
- Get myself back in gear for VGHC and make more use of a scary vocal range I know I have for future videos. If I'm brave enough.
- Get a select few with ability to stream on some VGHC streams/YT vids."
Of these things, MAGFest approaches slowly but surely. I rarely go to shows anymore and I'm going to a crazy gaming events of sorts that I am likely to have a stupid amount of fun at. Anxiety however is at a all time high. I've only traveled outside of the state I live in at the time once. I don't count the time where I had to move to Florida. I've never done it alone. Given my nature, the thought of it bothers me none. It's just that I'm actually doing it and for about a weeks time. I had hoped to have at least one other to enjoy this with me but it seems "the final hoorah" will be spent alone. Maybe I'll hit it off well with the Tribe members for the planned meetup. Yeah, I'm kinda planning a event to meet some of these people. Maybe even the band. I may actually meet Machinae Supremacy. I dunno what I'm gonna do with myself...
Fangirling aside, I will have to make preparations for the trip and genuinely walk into this alone. Much planning will be involved outside of just having fun. Moving out is gonna be a big step, sure. I am however willing to push that back, if need be. MAGFest isn't gonna wait. It's coming. I want this to be as close to perfect as possible because I've been mentally burnt out the past two months. It's show through VGHC and even at work. Can't have this at work, I make less money that way. When I come back from MAGFest, I have nothing else to shoot for outside of future progression. Getting out of Coral Springs. I have other goals, yes, as stated above, but top priority is leaving my current place of residence.
It's easy to talk about things like this like it is some kind of journey. Such is life anyway. I don't really have anyone to share it with, so thoughts end up in a post like this every month or so. Gives me a chance to sort things out and put out content. Putting out content...something else that needs to happen. Time to suit up and prepare for greatness. Much like the PS4 is still doing about a month after being released. Yeah, I went there. Lots of things do...to the next step. #ToTheFuture
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